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That's a cool idea! I think my problem is going to be the opposite - getting past a first draft and actually using my inner editor!
I think, when you're struggling with how terrible you think your work is, you have to realise that there is no other way for it to improve than to keep doing it. When I started Young Ambitions, I didn't have a clue, but, because I started, I'm now a bit closer to knowing what I should be doing there. With writing this year's NaNo, if I hadn't started writing, I wouldn't have found out that my main character is not at all like last year's character (I was worried they would have exactly the same voice), but that she's sarcastic, lazy and a bit grumpy. Doing stuff even though you might be rubbish really is such a good way to improve.
Hope ruining your first page works :-)
6 months, 1 week ago on Ruining the First Page (Or, Kicking Out Your Inner Critic)
I love this post, Erin! (And you write so eloquently!) I love how you've taken one part of your life and applied what you've learnt to, well, everything! And I completely agree. I guess that's why I called my free e-book The Other Voice - it's just an alternative take on life which readers can choose to agree with or forget about. But thank you for making me realise this. Quite often I think you know something but you don't know that you know it and it takes another person or an experience to make you see it.
(Also, sorry I've not been on here in a while - I think your tweets must have got lost in the sea of tweets I was receiving! Have therefore stopped following a lot of people! Look forward to reading more :-) )
8 months, 3 weeks ago on What Dietary Adventures (and Denise) Taught Me About Thinking for Myself
Wow. This is something I could have written myself on my blog. I stumbled across TFLP a few days ago and am back to devour your posts! I have a feeling I will love them and that there will be a lot of crossover between our sites. We shall see!
8 months, 3 weeks ago on Start Here
How timely - my latest post touches on self-acceptance and perceived faults too!
I agree that it's important to accept and like yourself as you are. However, I'm very guilty of the whole 'makeover' thing. I'm always trying different hairstyles, I always wear make up...there are plenty of parts of me that I've not accepted or started to like yet and I try and hide them. So in my last post I started trying to tackle this tendency, by acknowledging them and standing up and saying 'this is me'.
This sort of thing definitely needs talking about more.
9 months, 2 weeks ago on What's Wrong with What's "Wrong" with You
Good luck and good on you!
I'm trying to think of times that I've felt scared and what springs to mind is social situations/being around strangers. I panic and, no matter how I've tried to prepare myself, all of my good intentions go out of the window and I latch onto someone and clam up. That's not always the case and I'm trying to work out what the difference is. Hm... When I get like this, rationalising with myself doesn't help either. I can know very well that the fear would stop and I would feel better if I just spoke to someone but that doesn't help...
When I experience fear in situations like exams or presentations, I can generally suppress it and just go for it. Maybe I feel like I have more control over those situations because I have a better idea of what's coming. I guess that means I might do better in social situations if I had a tonne of potential conversations lined up in my head.
Thanks - again - for making me think!
9 months, 3 weeks ago on Understanding Fears: How Do You Experience Fear?
This was really interesting to read. I was just talking to someone about how maybe the idea I have in my head of who I am might not have kept up with how I've changed over the last year. I've become more independent, I have a whole different philosophy, completely different ambitions and I'm not following anyone else around - I'm leading myself. But in my head I'm shy, quiet, a sheep and I latch on to other people for guidance. Wow, I'm a totally different person.
One day I'd like to live in a tiny house on wheels and love the idea of decluttering. I had been viewing decluttering as a massive task I would need to spend loads of time on someday but I've realised it would be easier to just get rid of one thing each day or week and ease my way into a calmer environment.
I've always kept my old phones. Even though I don't have the chargers for them and can't turn them on, I've kept them because I know they're full of messages which I'd kept deliberately. These texts were from people I thought were amazing and texts full of compliments and 'I love yous'. They made me feel special. I don't look at them anymore but getting rid of them would probably mean recognising that those relationships don't exist anymore, which is sad. But getting rid of them might also make me feel free and confident: I don't need that validation anymore and I have carried on without those people. I will have to keep thinking about this!
Wow - you really got me to think there, Erin. Thank you.
9 months, 3 weeks ago on Learning to Live with Absence
I think an adventure for me is learning something, particularly when I have no idea when I first start. For example, last week, I sat down at my computer with a list of things I wanted to do on my blog. I had no idea how to do most of them because I'd never used Wordpress before. Every time I struggled, I just searched and read and tried over and over until I got the result I wanted. And it was a bloody awesome day!
It's the journey from hope through aha moments to progress. I'm beginning to realise that I'm only in a bad mood when I've been unproductive and I'm only flying when I've achieved loads, generally through perseverance. I'm excited just talking about it!
9 months, 3 weeks ago on What Counts As An Adventure For YOU?
@sarahtops42 They were so lovely - Lewis was all nervous before they went on stage. It was cute!
It's ok, think I have it sussed now. It's just the whole logging in thing. Should also sort out my lil pic because it looks hideous on here for some reason lol!
10 months ago on Gender Identity
I did this for my birthday last year because I was feeling pretty down about where I was (trying to get over a break up) and was trying to draw as much good out of each point, including the bad ones, as possible. I'm excited to see what I'll list this year! Will have to see if I can find last year's list and make it a regular thing - thanks for reminding me.
PS Hope you had a great day!
10 months ago on Looking Back On The Year
@sarahtops42 Coincidence - 3 1/2 months later and it's ready and posted online the day after I mention it to you! It's very short but shows how lovely and funny they are: http://www.nutsonline.org/episodes/eVIqrj/
(Also, I'm really struggling with this Livefyre comment thing!)
10 months, 1 week ago on Gender Identity
Hey - I've popped onto your blog a few times from Emilie's one. It was great to read this post and see how your thinking has changed over time. I had a similar thing with My Trans Summer - I loved it but looking at it online helped me understand a lot of the problems with how trans* people are portrayed. I was until about a month ago an LGBT Campaigns Officer at my uni and I organised for Drew and Lewis to come and do a talk and Q&A. It was pretty awesome! At some point there should be a video of the event online - when that happens I'll try and let you know so that you can swoon over Lewis!